if you're from alabama, you'll understand this post a little better!
six months ago today the worst tornado event occurred all over this wonderful state! the images are still as heart breaking as when i first saw them. the tornadoes left my area in a power outage for 5 days for me, give or take for others. i have some clients, family and friends who work for our wonderful utility company who worked like no one before! a huge thank you to their families for sharing! my own brother, who works for my county's water dept, worked like a poor ole crazy man!
also, six months ago my precious papa had a MAJOR surgery - yes, at about midnight during the first night of the power outage when there was very limited communication b/c of lines being down and such.
i can't believe it's been six months! so much has happened since then!
and, so much is happening still! i have lots to update soon i promise!
my last post was about my pastor being so sick. he passed away Friday, October 14 on the last word of the last verse of "Amazing Grace" that his wife and 4 children were singing to him as they were standing around his hospital bed. precious precious precious!
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
heart breaks
are never easy. i guess that's why they call it "breaks". as i type this my pastor is dying. it's terribly sad. his family is such a close family, he's been pastor of my church for almost 37 year (out of my church's 58 years), and half of his family are hard workers still in our church.
i never knew how to treat or be treated by a pastor that wasn't my own father. bro richard is like a grandfather to me. no, i haven't always liked things he's said, done or wanted done. that's human of us all. he's such an amazing man! a strong fighter, faithful, loving, serving, smiling man.
he's 75, fighting his 2 battle of renal cell carcinoma. he developed a bleeding ulcer and things haven't been the same since late july early august.
they hospital called his family in sunday morning early, the day of our church's homecoming service, and he's not been responsive since.
he's the first real pastor i've had since my dad. my old church had called a pastor after my dad left, but it was so hard for me b/c of everything that had happened with my family and church at one time. i felt he was a miserable replacement of my dad. i really think God moving to NSBC and away from the church where i, literally, grew up in was a blessing for me and WBC.
bro richard has been such a silent, strong, faithful, loving, smiling, praising, teaching, passionate pastor and i'm going to miss him so much. at least i know i won't be alone in the sadness. my whole church family is close, and i know that loosing him is going to affect us in many ways.
please, if you're a believer, pray for my precious pastor, his family, our church family and friends ... this is not easy.
with sadness, yet joy ... knowing where he is going, and just thinking of how wonderful his first day of Heaven is going to be thrills me and makes me somewhat jealous.
joy comes in the morning ....
britt
i never knew how to treat or be treated by a pastor that wasn't my own father. bro richard is like a grandfather to me. no, i haven't always liked things he's said, done or wanted done. that's human of us all. he's such an amazing man! a strong fighter, faithful, loving, serving, smiling man.
he's 75, fighting his 2 battle of renal cell carcinoma. he developed a bleeding ulcer and things haven't been the same since late july early august.
they hospital called his family in sunday morning early, the day of our church's homecoming service, and he's not been responsive since.
he's the first real pastor i've had since my dad. my old church had called a pastor after my dad left, but it was so hard for me b/c of everything that had happened with my family and church at one time. i felt he was a miserable replacement of my dad. i really think God moving to NSBC and away from the church where i, literally, grew up in was a blessing for me and WBC.
bro richard has been such a silent, strong, faithful, loving, smiling, praising, teaching, passionate pastor and i'm going to miss him so much. at least i know i won't be alone in the sadness. my whole church family is close, and i know that loosing him is going to affect us in many ways.
please, if you're a believer, pray for my precious pastor, his family, our church family and friends ... this is not easy.
with sadness, yet joy ... knowing where he is going, and just thinking of how wonderful his first day of Heaven is going to be thrills me and makes me somewhat jealous.
joy comes in the morning ....
britt
Monday, September 12, 2011
4 1/2 months later ...
i'm going to attempt to post again ... i have two already started, but i can tell they're me needing to vent and don't need to be broad casted to anyone else ...
so, wow! time has flown! it's almost mid-september!
lately, i have been feeling like i'm in a stand still. i feel like every one is getting married, buying a home, or having a baby (ies). it's not helping matters that some friends are already on baby #2. i love my job, love selling jewelry (even though i'm not staying super busy with it), love my family - especially my nephews, but i feel like nothing is changing with me.
i don't mean to be selfish, but sometimes i think we should focus on ourselves. who else is??? i also would like for God to let me in on if i'm going to be single the rest of my life or not. i know that's not how HE works, but boy oh boy! it would be nice to know so i could try to "help" HIM plan my life. maybe if i knew that info i wouldn't have the feelings i do now, or maybe it would make it worse. i'm trying to grasp on the idea of what fun would it be if i knew God's total plan for me - it wouldn't be fun b/c i wouldn't get the lessons and blessings daily that HE alone gives.
have you ever felt that way? like nothing you did was good enough because you're not where you thought you were going to be?
more to come ...
so, wow! time has flown! it's almost mid-september!
lately, i have been feeling like i'm in a stand still. i feel like every one is getting married, buying a home, or having a baby (ies). it's not helping matters that some friends are already on baby #2. i love my job, love selling jewelry (even though i'm not staying super busy with it), love my family - especially my nephews, but i feel like nothing is changing with me.
i don't mean to be selfish, but sometimes i think we should focus on ourselves. who else is??? i also would like for God to let me in on if i'm going to be single the rest of my life or not. i know that's not how HE works, but boy oh boy! it would be nice to know so i could try to "help" HIM plan my life. maybe if i knew that info i wouldn't have the feelings i do now, or maybe it would make it worse. i'm trying to grasp on the idea of what fun would it be if i knew God's total plan for me - it wouldn't be fun b/c i wouldn't get the lessons and blessings daily that HE alone gives.
have you ever felt that way? like nothing you did was good enough because you're not where you thought you were going to be?
more to come ...
Monday, April 25, 2011
where to start ...
is the big question here! wow! maybe i should just do a list! i'm not even sure i would remember everything.
first off, i am sad to say i did not make my goal of losing 20 pounds by Easter. last i weighed, i was down 8-10 pounds depending on the scale. i'm ok with that. i should have set a goal of 10, but i wanted to more. too much? maybe. could have done it? yep! pretty sure i could have if i had really worked hard at it.
i still find myself making better food choices, so it has become a life style change. as for the group from my church doing this: yeah. they all fell off the weight loss wagon. truth be told, i'm one of the 4/20 that stuck with it. one is excused b/c she found out shes expecting number 4! huge surprise to that sweet family!
am i upset i only lost 8-10 pounds? i was, but then i realized what i was saying and doing to myself. i have done something wonderful for myself! slow and steady wins the race, right? i'm actually proud of myself. i've even thought about buying myself at each 10lb mark i loose.
so, here's the biggest news! i've signed up as a jeweler for a wonderful, Biblical based jewelry company! it's a company i've loved for years, literally. i'm really excited to see where God leads me with this. it's definitely because of Him i'm on this path. i ran from Him about this for about four years. so now, i'm ready to go! ready to still do hair, and enrich people's lives with beautiful jewelry, a fun night in their home, and sharing about what Jesus has done for me and is doing for me.
also, in some not so happy news - my papa has been having some health issues lately. he's 76 and i love him more than my words can express! it's breaking my heart to see him like this.he "talks" himself into cancer every time something is going on with him. i wished he was more positive. currently, he's having to stay over night at the hospital from possible side effects from a procedure he had this morning. so prayers needed here ...
and exciting news!!!! my best is moving back home! yay! congrats on the upcoming college degree, kel! words can never express how proud i am of all of her hard work and dedication! i know she's going to do great in "big girl world"! i can't wait to go see her graduate! : ) plus, everything is better in t-town, can i get a roll tide???!!!! ; )
so long for now!
busy B
first off, i am sad to say i did not make my goal of losing 20 pounds by Easter. last i weighed, i was down 8-10 pounds depending on the scale. i'm ok with that. i should have set a goal of 10, but i wanted to more. too much? maybe. could have done it? yep! pretty sure i could have if i had really worked hard at it.
i still find myself making better food choices, so it has become a life style change. as for the group from my church doing this: yeah. they all fell off the weight loss wagon. truth be told, i'm one of the 4/20 that stuck with it. one is excused b/c she found out shes expecting number 4! huge surprise to that sweet family!
am i upset i only lost 8-10 pounds? i was, but then i realized what i was saying and doing to myself. i have done something wonderful for myself! slow and steady wins the race, right? i'm actually proud of myself. i've even thought about buying myself at each 10lb mark i loose.
so, here's the biggest news! i've signed up as a jeweler for a wonderful, Biblical based jewelry company! it's a company i've loved for years, literally. i'm really excited to see where God leads me with this. it's definitely because of Him i'm on this path. i ran from Him about this for about four years. so now, i'm ready to go! ready to still do hair, and enrich people's lives with beautiful jewelry, a fun night in their home, and sharing about what Jesus has done for me and is doing for me.
also, in some not so happy news - my papa has been having some health issues lately. he's 76 and i love him more than my words can express! it's breaking my heart to see him like this.he "talks" himself into cancer every time something is going on with him. i wished he was more positive. currently, he's having to stay over night at the hospital from possible side effects from a procedure he had this morning. so prayers needed here ...
and exciting news!!!! my best is moving back home! yay! congrats on the upcoming college degree, kel! words can never express how proud i am of all of her hard work and dedication! i know she's going to do great in "big girl world"! i can't wait to go see her graduate! : ) plus, everything is better in t-town, can i get a roll tide???!!!! ; )
so long for now!
busy B
Sunday, March 27, 2011
half way there
lately, i've been wanting to get back to my exercising. this big girl, who's mostly, always been out of shape, has missed workingout! my eating has been ok, nothing super duper healthy, but nothing awful either. i miss the exercising, and i'm working on that ... hopefully as of tomorrow.
with the feelings from wanting to get back in the swing of things, i haven't weighed in either.
lately, different, random people of my life have said, "you look like you've lost some weight." i always reply, "not so much, but thanks anyways".
i don't take compliments very well. i'm a lot like my mother in the regard.
so, friday morning, i decided to weigh in. i wasn't looking forward until i did the math. then i stepped off the scales,and back on then subtracted again.
i'm half way to my goal! i have exactly a month to loose the over half. now, i'm back motivated!
i keep thinking, wow - the first ten pounds took 2 months and you only have a month. well, i'm hoping to really jump start the exercising and see what that will do. i'm hoping in all to be down 26 pounds by my 26th birthday this may. the end to meeting these goals is so close!
thank goodness it's springtime! even if it is dogwood winter here in north bama, and slightly freezing.
so, here's to new motivation,and then next ten pounds!
what do you do to help stay motivated to loose weight and stay on your plan?
Busy B
with the feelings from wanting to get back in the swing of things, i haven't weighed in either.
lately, different, random people of my life have said, "you look like you've lost some weight." i always reply, "not so much, but thanks anyways".
i don't take compliments very well. i'm a lot like my mother in the regard.
so, friday morning, i decided to weigh in. i wasn't looking forward until i did the math. then i stepped off the scales,and back on then subtracted again.
i'm half way to my goal! i have exactly a month to loose the over half. now, i'm back motivated!
i keep thinking, wow - the first ten pounds took 2 months and you only have a month. well, i'm hoping to really jump start the exercising and see what that will do. i'm hoping in all to be down 26 pounds by my 26th birthday this may. the end to meeting these goals is so close!
thank goodness it's springtime! even if it is dogwood winter here in north bama, and slightly freezing.
so, here's to new motivation,and then next ten pounds!
what do you do to help stay motivated to loose weight and stay on your plan?
Busy B
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
march madnes
and no, i'm not talking about the basketball stuff that my mother is all upset about (something about a bracket she has made isn't working well for her ... bless her and her passion for all sports).
march has been a crazy, fast, busy month! seriously! have you seen what the date is?????!!!!!! the 24th?! already???? yes! sheesh!
so, what has march brought for this single, self-employed chick?
~ busy,busy days coloring every one's hair or cutting it all off! what can i say?! spring has sprung!
~ i now have another job - i'm a dealer for premier designs. i'm so so so so so so so so excited about this new path!!!! i've loved their jewelry for, well literally, years! now, instead of having parties to get LOTS of free jewelry, i'll be making money for it : )
~ LOTS of "big girl" moves have happened in a weeks time, i kid you not!
~ tough lesson learned: banks no longer look at a person who is 100% debt free and has no credit as a good thing ... so here's to establishing credit ... ugh ... oh well
~ i have a laptop, rather, a net book. it's very little, and simple!! i'm so lost about computers, especially for my age. but i'm loving having my own laptop and wireless internet!
~ dealing with my aunt wanting to "hook me up" with some man. i'm not big on blind dates, and not real sure as much as i love her ( she's been more than an aunt to me and my siblings our whole lives), i trust her opinion on this topic. and this is awful, i don't like his name. that's probably not a nice thing to say, but there's just something about this whole thing i'm just not sure of ... hmmm ...
~ how can i forget - birthdays??!!! my daddy had his bday saturday. i worked all day long and then my mom threw down on some country cooking! all the nephews were here and after supper we all burned a lot of calories by running after the twins, holding nephew C, and playing with my sis' step son. her step daughter was sleeping over at her g'ma's.
next up on the bday list is my papa! that's another thing that's happened - the first of the month he was sick and the doctors weren't so sure if had had a stroke or not. thankfully, it wasn't a stroke, and as of today, his neuro doctor isn't sure what it is, but is thinking it was a one time deal. i like that diagnosis! i love my papa more than i could ever describe! i can't imagine not having him, my granny, my parents or really any of my family in my life. i know it's selfish, but it's the truth. so, today a huge burden was lifted! now, on to celebrate his 76th bday next week!
~ i'm now on the advisory board for a local charity place that serves the area of the county i live in and even where i work. they actually have a much larger need to help the small town i work in. it's not really a charity,but for safety i'll not list their name. they have a food pantry ministry, they do so much with the school, have an awesome thrift store, and i could literally go on and on and on about the wonderful things they do and the why of what they do. their hope and prayer is that one day the cycle of poverty for this area will be broken, parents can provide for their families and have dignity, and the school will have parental support like none other. my heart has been broken over one of their ministries -bags of blessings b.o.b. - they send home 335 bags of food with students every friday so these 335 will not starve over the weekend. seriously. we have 335 kids in one very small school/community going hungry on the weekends. heart break doesn't describe what i'm feeling right now.
so, anyways - how about you??? has march and spring have you in a new found craziness?
march has been a crazy, fast, busy month! seriously! have you seen what the date is?????!!!!!! the 24th?! already???? yes! sheesh!
so, what has march brought for this single, self-employed chick?
~ busy,busy days coloring every one's hair or cutting it all off! what can i say?! spring has sprung!
~ i now have another job - i'm a dealer for premier designs. i'm so so so so so so so so excited about this new path!!!! i've loved their jewelry for, well literally, years! now, instead of having parties to get LOTS of free jewelry, i'll be making money for it : )
~ LOTS of "big girl" moves have happened in a weeks time, i kid you not!
~ tough lesson learned: banks no longer look at a person who is 100% debt free and has no credit as a good thing ... so here's to establishing credit ... ugh ... oh well
~ i have a laptop, rather, a net book. it's very little, and simple!! i'm so lost about computers, especially for my age. but i'm loving having my own laptop and wireless internet!
~ dealing with my aunt wanting to "hook me up" with some man. i'm not big on blind dates, and not real sure as much as i love her ( she's been more than an aunt to me and my siblings our whole lives), i trust her opinion on this topic. and this is awful, i don't like his name. that's probably not a nice thing to say, but there's just something about this whole thing i'm just not sure of ... hmmm ...
~ how can i forget - birthdays??!!! my daddy had his bday saturday. i worked all day long and then my mom threw down on some country cooking! all the nephews were here and after supper we all burned a lot of calories by running after the twins, holding nephew C, and playing with my sis' step son. her step daughter was sleeping over at her g'ma's.
next up on the bday list is my papa! that's another thing that's happened - the first of the month he was sick and the doctors weren't so sure if had had a stroke or not. thankfully, it wasn't a stroke, and as of today, his neuro doctor isn't sure what it is, but is thinking it was a one time deal. i like that diagnosis! i love my papa more than i could ever describe! i can't imagine not having him, my granny, my parents or really any of my family in my life. i know it's selfish, but it's the truth. so, today a huge burden was lifted! now, on to celebrate his 76th bday next week!
~ i'm now on the advisory board for a local charity place that serves the area of the county i live in and even where i work. they actually have a much larger need to help the small town i work in. it's not really a charity,but for safety i'll not list their name. they have a food pantry ministry, they do so much with the school, have an awesome thrift store, and i could literally go on and on and on about the wonderful things they do and the why of what they do. their hope and prayer is that one day the cycle of poverty for this area will be broken, parents can provide for their families and have dignity, and the school will have parental support like none other. my heart has been broken over one of their ministries -bags of blessings b.o.b. - they send home 335 bags of food with students every friday so these 335 will not starve over the weekend. seriously. we have 335 kids in one very small school/community going hungry on the weekends. heart break doesn't describe what i'm feeling right now.
so, anyways - how about you??? has march and spring have you in a new found craziness?
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
spring fever
has sprung! i'm ready to hear everyone start saying."what a lovely, nice,pleasant,and LONG spring we're having!"
yes! i'm ready for sunshine, yellow box flops, happy days, daylight savings time!, new OPi nail polish colors!, and grills going outside!
my mind is racing with lots of things right now. for one, i'm thankful February is over with! yes, it was a good month. a crazy, fast,busy month! the new plan of healthy living got cut out somewhat.
March is going to be different. Did you hear me? I promise! I have so much coming up that I want to be healthier.
Last week, on my off day, my mom and I took my twin nephews for a few minutes to play outside. I was literally jogging all over our front yard. never once did i get winded. what?! yep! i felt awesome the whole time! before that i was chasing one nephew on way in our house and the other the other way. we were playing hide-go-seek, or at least the 16 almost 17 month old version of that game : )
the whole time i felt great! picking up 50+ pound of nephews (when holding them together), running, bending up and down, crawling, laughing, etc i'm sure burned a lot of calories.
i keep thinking of that day, and of them and my other sweet,precious, HAPPY nephew and it makes me yearn for the big results yesterday!!!!!!!
so, here's to small results today, this week and this month!
here's to doing and planning for me. that seriously made me cringe. this is something i'm not use to ....
Happy March ya'll!
yes! i'm ready for sunshine, yellow box flops, happy days, daylight savings time!, new OPi nail polish colors!, and grills going outside!
my mind is racing with lots of things right now. for one, i'm thankful February is over with! yes, it was a good month. a crazy, fast,busy month! the new plan of healthy living got cut out somewhat.
March is going to be different. Did you hear me? I promise! I have so much coming up that I want to be healthier.
Last week, on my off day, my mom and I took my twin nephews for a few minutes to play outside. I was literally jogging all over our front yard. never once did i get winded. what?! yep! i felt awesome the whole time! before that i was chasing one nephew on way in our house and the other the other way. we were playing hide-go-seek, or at least the 16 almost 17 month old version of that game : )
the whole time i felt great! picking up 50+ pound of nephews (when holding them together), running, bending up and down, crawling, laughing, etc i'm sure burned a lot of calories.
i keep thinking of that day, and of them and my other sweet,precious, HAPPY nephew and it makes me yearn for the big results yesterday!!!!!!!
so, here's to small results today, this week and this month!
here's to doing and planning for me. that seriously made me cringe. this is something i'm not use to ....
Happy March ya'll!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
hamster wheel
Have you ever got home from a long,wonderful,fun,yet exhausting day feeling like you're a hamster on a wheel?
Well,that was my day Saturday. It was a WONDERFUL day! The children at my church participated in Children's Ministry Day:Neighbor to Neighbor. We had 6 kids and 4 adults. 1 of the kids is a 3 year old little boy who worked harder than two 7 year old boys - I kid you not! We helped 3 widows of our church around their homes. 1 inside,2 outside.
It went over an hour longer than I had planned, but the second lady had so much that needed to be done, and she can't, and we just kept working there forgetting about the time. Isn't that the right thing to do though? I can do my laundry, clean at my house, or whatever else people use Saturdays for (I'm usually behind my chair making my clients beautiful on Saturdays); she can't. I was so pleased at the love for others even the youngest child had/has!
I was tired, I won't lie, Saturday night, Sunday and even yesterday from the whole weekend in general. My life has been having this crazy pattern lately - lots on the calendar for a few days in a row, few days of nothing and then here I go again!
So what did this single girl do this weekend that wore her out, you might ask? Probably not, and that's ok; I'm going to tell you anyway :)
Friday:
work
bank
grocery store for CMD on Sat
home for a few minutes
"Tom Sawyer" play - my youngest 1st cousin was Alfred Temple! it was his first big play! and if you're in the north al area you should check out Fantasy Play House's plays at the VBC!
bed
Saturday:
up 30 minutes late
church - get breakfast going and prepare for lunch
prepare the kids for the work/breakfast
work with the kids
go to work and spring clean my station for our upcoming inspection/ and my weekly duties
home to shower and change
liz's bday celebration
home at 1130
Sunday - my most favorite day of the week!:
church
lunch
bridal tea for a cousin
home for a minute
church again
supper with the gang
home
yep! I'm a little tired! Seeing it wrote out maybe doesn't look like a lot, but if only my church had a dollar for every leaf or sweet gum ball I raked up Saturday! And that doesn't count all those blown by the men helpers or the other lady who helped so graciously!
how about you? do you ever feel like you're on a hamster wheel?
running on a wheel,
Busy B
Well,that was my day Saturday. It was a WONDERFUL day! The children at my church participated in Children's Ministry Day:Neighbor to Neighbor. We had 6 kids and 4 adults. 1 of the kids is a 3 year old little boy who worked harder than two 7 year old boys - I kid you not! We helped 3 widows of our church around their homes. 1 inside,2 outside.
It went over an hour longer than I had planned, but the second lady had so much that needed to be done, and she can't, and we just kept working there forgetting about the time. Isn't that the right thing to do though? I can do my laundry, clean at my house, or whatever else people use Saturdays for (I'm usually behind my chair making my clients beautiful on Saturdays); she can't. I was so pleased at the love for others even the youngest child had/has!
I was tired, I won't lie, Saturday night, Sunday and even yesterday from the whole weekend in general. My life has been having this crazy pattern lately - lots on the calendar for a few days in a row, few days of nothing and then here I go again!
So what did this single girl do this weekend that wore her out, you might ask? Probably not, and that's ok; I'm going to tell you anyway :)
Friday:
work
bank
grocery store for CMD on Sat
home for a few minutes
"Tom Sawyer" play - my youngest 1st cousin was Alfred Temple! it was his first big play! and if you're in the north al area you should check out Fantasy Play House's plays at the VBC!
bed
Saturday:
up 30 minutes late
church - get breakfast going and prepare for lunch
prepare the kids for the work/breakfast
work with the kids
go to work and spring clean my station for our upcoming inspection/ and my weekly duties
home to shower and change
liz's bday celebration
home at 1130
Sunday - my most favorite day of the week!:
church
lunch
bridal tea for a cousin
home for a minute
church again
supper with the gang
home
yep! I'm a little tired! Seeing it wrote out maybe doesn't look like a lot, but if only my church had a dollar for every leaf or sweet gum ball I raked up Saturday! And that doesn't count all those blown by the men helpers or the other lady who helped so graciously!
how about you? do you ever feel like you're on a hamster wheel?
running on a wheel,
Busy B
Thursday, February 17, 2011
no more excuses
i know it's been a minute or two since i've been here. i actually can't find a post that i had saved and thought i had posted ... hmmmm ....
so here's an update - yes, i'm fully aware you may not care. this is a selfish update and a kick in the tail for me.
i'm happily on day 5 of no caffeine. monday was AWFUL! until i got home, took some advil and kept the twin nephews : )
weight loss- in all 4 pounds. yes, that's right. only 4. i lost one pound over 2 weeks. seriously?! you bet!
my inspiration is gone, and i have very few people in my "support system" for my efforts of becoming healthier.
i'm finding the want to again after the pitiful 1 pound loss.
i can tell changes in my body. not the scales, and i'm trying to be ok with that. that part is not easy! i know, i know ... muscle weighs more than fat. i'm not muscle-y, yet. i can tell my legs are toning up nicely! they've always caused me issues!
so, maybe this is the norm. it's about a month now since i've started this journey. it's the longest i've done it, and maybe that's why it's so hard right now.
i also had really begun to dig deep into God's Word, and had fallen in love with it! turning off the tv at night, and reading about Him, His creation, and the past. maybe it was because i was scared to death and felt so unworthy to lead a devotion to my SMAC (sisters made alive in Christ) group from my church. i would love to share it, but what i have wrote down in my pretty notebook isn't how it all came out. which is great, because God said it all. now that that's been over, the devil has been on the prowl in my life. it happens. life gets tiring. life gets stressful. life makes us to proud. life gives us excuses.
no more excuses is my new mind set. no more settling. no more mind set of if i don't have support of this one or that one (the ones i love most) i can't do this. no more thinking, "this one little bite won't hurt". no more feelings of regret over one pound. it took a pound a time to get here, one pound down is good, not great, but good. at least i didn't gain a pound,right?!
no more excuses. my life is easy compared to others. i keep thinking of francesca battistelli's song this is the stuff ... "in the middle of my little mess, I forget how big I'm blessed .... it might not be what I would choose, but this is the stuff YOU use...."
in the middle of my little mess,
Busy B
so here's an update - yes, i'm fully aware you may not care. this is a selfish update and a kick in the tail for me.
i'm happily on day 5 of no caffeine. monday was AWFUL! until i got home, took some advil and kept the twin nephews : )
weight loss- in all 4 pounds. yes, that's right. only 4. i lost one pound over 2 weeks. seriously?! you bet!
my inspiration is gone, and i have very few people in my "support system" for my efforts of becoming healthier.
i'm finding the want to again after the pitiful 1 pound loss.
i can tell changes in my body. not the scales, and i'm trying to be ok with that. that part is not easy! i know, i know ... muscle weighs more than fat. i'm not muscle-y, yet. i can tell my legs are toning up nicely! they've always caused me issues!
so, maybe this is the norm. it's about a month now since i've started this journey. it's the longest i've done it, and maybe that's why it's so hard right now.
i also had really begun to dig deep into God's Word, and had fallen in love with it! turning off the tv at night, and reading about Him, His creation, and the past. maybe it was because i was scared to death and felt so unworthy to lead a devotion to my SMAC (sisters made alive in Christ) group from my church. i would love to share it, but what i have wrote down in my pretty notebook isn't how it all came out. which is great, because God said it all. now that that's been over, the devil has been on the prowl in my life. it happens. life gets tiring. life gets stressful. life makes us to proud. life gives us excuses.
no more excuses is my new mind set. no more settling. no more mind set of if i don't have support of this one or that one (the ones i love most) i can't do this. no more thinking, "this one little bite won't hurt". no more feelings of regret over one pound. it took a pound a time to get here, one pound down is good, not great, but good. at least i didn't gain a pound,right?!
no more excuses. my life is easy compared to others. i keep thinking of francesca battistelli's song this is the stuff ... "in the middle of my little mess, I forget how big I'm blessed .... it might not be what I would choose, but this is the stuff YOU use...."
in the middle of my little mess,
Busy B
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Looking ...
as i have mentioned, i feel like my life is changing. yes, i'm making physical changes, and even saw a - 3 1/2 pounds this last week. that's not the change i'm talking about though. not this time,at least.
God has been convicting me, leading me to discover His Word, and opening my eyes.
i just read from christian speaker/Bible teacher, Priscilla Shirer's blog. My eyes have been being opened,even before i read this. please take the few minutes to read it too.
i play peek-a-boo with all my nephews, and i love to hear them laugh and giggle. nephew d will play it ALL day long! he loves to laugh. lately, i've been playing like i'm sleeping. i'll "snore" and close my eyes, yet have them open just enough to ensure they're ok and not about to jump on my head or yank all my hair out of my head! i love when i say,"Boo!" and i "wake up" they just laugh, and seem to want me to do it again and again.
sometimes, i just use my hands in peek-a-boo and look through the cracks of my fingers to watch their precious,amazing,loving,crazy faces.
i had the thought, that's the only time i immediately see happy results from covering my eyes. usually, something scary has my covering up my eyes. much like the trials and path of life. i think of how 6 years ago i was afraid of the future. i'm thankful God made me see with my eyes and held my hands instead of letting me cover my eyes with them. i'm thankful that when i did cover my eyes, God smacked them, shamed me and knocked me in the head to make me watch what HE was doing.
i'm afraid that lately i've become way to content, and instead of covering my eyes i've closed them.
how about you? are your eyes opened, covered or closed?
God has been convicting me, leading me to discover His Word, and opening my eyes.
i just read from christian speaker/Bible teacher, Priscilla Shirer's blog. My eyes have been being opened,even before i read this. please take the few minutes to read it too.
i play peek-a-boo with all my nephews, and i love to hear them laugh and giggle. nephew d will play it ALL day long! he loves to laugh. lately, i've been playing like i'm sleeping. i'll "snore" and close my eyes, yet have them open just enough to ensure they're ok and not about to jump on my head or yank all my hair out of my head! i love when i say,"Boo!" and i "wake up" they just laugh, and seem to want me to do it again and again.
sometimes, i just use my hands in peek-a-boo and look through the cracks of my fingers to watch their precious,amazing,loving,crazy faces.
i had the thought, that's the only time i immediately see happy results from covering my eyes. usually, something scary has my covering up my eyes. much like the trials and path of life. i think of how 6 years ago i was afraid of the future. i'm thankful God made me see with my eyes and held my hands instead of letting me cover my eyes with them. i'm thankful that when i did cover my eyes, God smacked them, shamed me and knocked me in the head to make me watch what HE was doing.
i'm afraid that lately i've become way to content, and instead of covering my eyes i've closed them.
how about you? are your eyes opened, covered or closed?
Monday, January 24, 2011
third time a charm?!
last winter i bought Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred. I worked out with it for a few, and stopped. Then in the summer, Liz and I did it for almost 2 months. So here's to tomorrow. . . and I'm thinking I'm not going to do JM's dvd, maybe something new.
I have not lost my want to to live a healthier, better life. In fact, how could I not when this morning I was down 3 whole pounds! WOOHOO! Now, if Wednesday night at church those scales say the same thing, or even just a 1.5 lb loss, I'll be a happy happy gal!
Let me add here, I have not one time deprived myself of something I wanted. Last Monday night at chilis I even had some of my brownie shot dessert my meal came with, Friday night I had fajitas at a Mexican restaurant in my hometown. I only ate 2 chips/salsa, no cheese dip (probably the biggest temptation for me so far), 2 bites of rice and beans, and the rest chicken and veggies. Sunday I went out to Outback with some friends from church who are on this journey with me. Only, let me add here, one of them has always been small, and seems to being a much harder time than me. I love this person which is the only reason I wasn't ugly to them and tell them to shut their skinny mouth! I had a delicious and very satisfying meal for 500 cals. Awesome!
So, this can and will be done, along with my new list. I'm a list maker, or used to be. Now, I'm back at it.
here's a few BIG BIG BIG items on my list to save money and loose weight for!
1) have a professional photo shoot with my 3 nephews this spring as a bday gift to myself
2) beach trip with liz
3) kellie's graduation - and from the looks of some shots of me at christmas, I don't want anyone with a camera close to me until -20 lbs from now!
hi! ho! back to work I go!
Busy B
I have not lost my want to to live a healthier, better life. In fact, how could I not when this morning I was down 3 whole pounds! WOOHOO! Now, if Wednesday night at church those scales say the same thing, or even just a 1.5 lb loss, I'll be a happy happy gal!
Let me add here, I have not one time deprived myself of something I wanted. Last Monday night at chilis I even had some of my brownie shot dessert my meal came with, Friday night I had fajitas at a Mexican restaurant in my hometown. I only ate 2 chips/salsa, no cheese dip (probably the biggest temptation for me so far), 2 bites of rice and beans, and the rest chicken and veggies. Sunday I went out to Outback with some friends from church who are on this journey with me. Only, let me add here, one of them has always been small, and seems to being a much harder time than me. I love this person which is the only reason I wasn't ugly to them and tell them to shut their skinny mouth! I had a delicious and very satisfying meal for 500 cals. Awesome!
So, this can and will be done, along with my new list. I'm a list maker, or used to be. Now, I'm back at it.
here's a few BIG BIG BIG items on my list to save money and loose weight for!
1) have a professional photo shoot with my 3 nephews this spring as a bday gift to myself
2) beach trip with liz
3) kellie's graduation - and from the looks of some shots of me at christmas, I don't want anyone with a camera close to me until -20 lbs from now!
hi! ho! back to work I go!
Busy B
Thursday, January 20, 2011
I can, I am, and I will
be having some changes in my life.
We all do, I know. I also know this. God knows it all. HE alone knows just how much weight I will loose, and all of the other ponderings on my heart. The best part of HIM, to me, is that HE even knows the changes of my life that I can't even ponder.
I've always been naive, labeled "the goody goody preacher's daughter/christian". Am I perfect? Uh, no! Seriously?! No stinking way! I'm me. Just a simple, southern girl who has always had a weight problem, but has always had a family and group of friends who have looked past my size and into who I really am. I'm so thankful for that! Just the other night I was out to eat with Liz (my next door neighbor of my whole life -almost 26 years! and other "sis") before a movie. I was trying to decide what to eat, and she said, "Why, Britt are you doing this?". I replied, "for me. Because I want to and need to." She then added something that brought tears to my eyes. She said, "don't you know so many people love you for you. the confident,sweet, caring girl who as long as I've known you never think of you for your size."
As sweet as that was, she's never had a weight problem, bless her heart! She's tall, well compared to me, and always beautiful and small - medium size. We worked out for almost 2 whole months this past summer doing Jillian Michael's 30 daydeath sentence Shred. Why yes, that's right! We got our rears out of bed somewhere between 5:30- 5:45 and worked out outside on her patio in the summer in Bama! Those of you from Bama know this about our summers. It's HOTT! sticky, muggy, and hot. Yes, even that early in the morning. One morning, at 6 a.m., the heat index was 100 - it was during the hottest part of July. Our lives changed, and so did our exercise routine. Mine became non-existent.
So here's to one major new change, or I owe big time! Seriously!
There's a "gang" of us that eat out every Sunday night from my church after our evening service. Different ones have been talking for sometime now about loosing weight. Well, we have been challenged, and I can't resist.
We're weighing in every Wednesday night, I weigh in privately!, and we set a goal for ourselves. OUCH! That's been something I've quit doing for myself six years ago ..... that's def another post in its self!
So, by Easter Sunday this southern, random,curly headed, brown eyed big girl needs to have lost 20 pounds, some how some way - whatever way I choose and can do, or I owe $5 per member of the group as an extra offering to our building fund.
We talked this over somewhat Sunday night, so Monday I started trying to do better. So far so good except Tuesday. Tuesday was a day of good food choices, yet not enough food and supper was a fail. Basically didn't have anything....
So here's to lots of new things, and a BIG BIG BIG thanks to my Heavenly Father who is the ONE who is leading me, helping me, changing me, and hopefully molding me into something new for His honor and glory.
Anyone doing the new Weight Watchers????
Busy B
We all do, I know. I also know this. God knows it all. HE alone knows just how much weight I will loose, and all of the other ponderings on my heart. The best part of HIM, to me, is that HE even knows the changes of my life that I can't even ponder.
I've always been naive, labeled "the goody goody preacher's daughter/christian". Am I perfect? Uh, no! Seriously?! No stinking way! I'm me. Just a simple, southern girl who has always had a weight problem, but has always had a family and group of friends who have looked past my size and into who I really am. I'm so thankful for that! Just the other night I was out to eat with Liz (my next door neighbor of my whole life -almost 26 years! and other "sis") before a movie. I was trying to decide what to eat, and she said, "Why, Britt are you doing this?". I replied, "for me. Because I want to and need to." She then added something that brought tears to my eyes. She said, "don't you know so many people love you for you. the confident,sweet, caring girl who as long as I've known you never think of you for your size."
As sweet as that was, she's never had a weight problem, bless her heart! She's tall, well compared to me, and always beautiful and small - medium size. We worked out for almost 2 whole months this past summer doing Jillian Michael's 30 day
So here's to one major new change, or I owe big time! Seriously!
There's a "gang" of us that eat out every Sunday night from my church after our evening service. Different ones have been talking for sometime now about loosing weight. Well, we have been challenged, and I can't resist.
We're weighing in every Wednesday night, I weigh in privately!, and we set a goal for ourselves. OUCH! That's been something I've quit doing for myself six years ago ..... that's def another post in its self!
So, by Easter Sunday this southern, random,curly headed, brown eyed big girl needs to have lost 20 pounds, some how some way - whatever way I choose and can do, or I owe $5 per member of the group as an extra offering to our building fund.
We talked this over somewhat Sunday night, so Monday I started trying to do better. So far so good except Tuesday. Tuesday was a day of good food choices, yet not enough food and supper was a fail. Basically didn't have anything....
So here's to lots of new things, and a BIG BIG BIG thanks to my Heavenly Father who is the ONE who is leading me, helping me, changing me, and hopefully molding me into something new for His honor and glory.
Anyone doing the new Weight Watchers????
Busy B
Thursday, January 6, 2011
a time for change(s)
isn't that was this time of year is all about? i think so. i've been missing blogging so much. it's a great place to express the deeper stuff. why? i don't know. i'm totally ok with not having many followers. this is for me. selfish? hmmmm....
i don't have much time, but i will sum up christmas.
i got ALL my shopping done in two trips! the saturday and wednesday before Christmas, and wrapped them all by the time i went to bed wednesday night!
then i got sick. i thought i had a cold. christmas morning i wake up feeling weird. drunk almost, or what i would think that would feel like. i realized we had been given a white christmas in bama! wow! those words only go together in songs for us bama belles! did i get to enjoy it? ummm, no. that weird feeling was a 102.5 fever which finally broke in time for my sibs and their families to come over for supper. different ones had been sick with this and that, so it was my turn. one twin and their mom was at home sick. i couldn't hold and kiss nephew c b/c i was sickly. nephew l was the star of the show : ) he's great at being the center of attention! i ended up loosing my voice, feeling like i was swallowing razor blades every.single.time. i had to swallow. on monday i decided to not go in at work and go to a urgent care doctor. i told the doc i felt silly for being there b/c i was feeling better. he, not so nicely and very bluntly said, "you're not better. (add in total disgust look too). you have walking pneumonia." he writes my prescriptions out and then the nurse comes in with a paper about what i have and says bye bye.
i was speechless. i almost cried. what on earth?! i never, thankfully, get sick sick!
i'm much better. still sound different, ok croaky like. i'm pretty sure it'll be awhile before i can sing again. it's so heart breaking for me not to be able to sing in the car with my fav christian station, or at church! i love to sing! i want to sing! i want my voice back!
i've decided 2011 is going to be the year where this isn't the case: "If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got."
so changes are coming. i feel it
Busy B
i don't have much time, but i will sum up christmas.
i got ALL my shopping done in two trips! the saturday and wednesday before Christmas, and wrapped them all by the time i went to bed wednesday night!
then i got sick. i thought i had a cold. christmas morning i wake up feeling weird. drunk almost, or what i would think that would feel like. i realized we had been given a white christmas in bama! wow! those words only go together in songs for us bama belles! did i get to enjoy it? ummm, no. that weird feeling was a 102.5 fever which finally broke in time for my sibs and their families to come over for supper. different ones had been sick with this and that, so it was my turn. one twin and their mom was at home sick. i couldn't hold and kiss nephew c b/c i was sickly. nephew l was the star of the show : ) he's great at being the center of attention! i ended up loosing my voice, feeling like i was swallowing razor blades every.single.time. i had to swallow. on monday i decided to not go in at work and go to a urgent care doctor. i told the doc i felt silly for being there b/c i was feeling better. he, not so nicely and very bluntly said, "you're not better. (add in total disgust look too). you have walking pneumonia." he writes my prescriptions out and then the nurse comes in with a paper about what i have and says bye bye.
i was speechless. i almost cried. what on earth?! i never, thankfully, get sick sick!
i'm much better. still sound different, ok croaky like. i'm pretty sure it'll be awhile before i can sing again. it's so heart breaking for me not to be able to sing in the car with my fav christian station, or at church! i love to sing! i want to sing! i want my voice back!
i've decided 2011 is going to be the year where this isn't the case: "If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got."
so changes are coming. i feel it
Busy B
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