who knew

that your parents were really smart people? who knew that the saying, "time flies", really seems true. who knew what it was going to be like as an adult when you were 18-21? or 25 for that matter.

who knew friendships could be so hard, change so much, matter more than anything, or matter not so much.

i have a good many friends. i have very few best friends. there's a difference!

three years ago this past summer i would have told you i had 8 best friends - sis, kel, 5 other gals (i won't listed names for several reasons) and my guy friend, dg.

i'm amazed at how life changes.

3 years ago my heart was broken,and at a time that it just sucked to be broken! not that i think there is ever a good time for a heart break, but in my mind i could've thought of a different time.  there's been an "anniversary" of such heart break, and it's almost ironic this year. this is a true answer to prayer. i had forgotten. I HAD FORGOTTEN! my true, best friends (the 3 of you there really are), well tell you i have a crazy, good memory! i can remember outfits from years ago, and the boring list of non important memories will end there. i could hardly believe i had forgotten! i'm thankful for the forgetfulness. it really is an answer to prayers!

i've said it before, and i'll say it again. when you pray for something, you have to have the faith and believe that God will answer - the way you think it should be or not - He will answer. and, on His time, not yours or mine. that's the part that always gets me!

dg is now happily married for over a year. they have recently moved to the town i work in,and our paths are crossing more. it's funny,odd, yet comfortable.our whole friendship changed because God needed it too. i needed it too. once i was told that girls and boys, of any age, could never really be "just friends". i think "they" were right, in a sense. there's a fine line that has to be drawn. there's so much i still have bottled up about it all. good news is, it's not the heart break of loosing a wonderful friend. it's what i learned from my experience.

i think that's one of the most important life lessons - know who you are, why you are, what you believe in and stand for it, and learn from everything! the good,bad and/or ugly! learn from it! move on! and grow!

over the last few years, my life has changed. my family has changed. God has given me a new church home, place of work, gave me and taken away friendships, and added and taken away from my family.

work is going great! the nephews are all so amazing and words can not describe the joy they bring me daily!!!

but friendships? lately that front has been ridiculous! one day one of them was there,like they had been for the last seven years, then gone! poof! gone! yet, now they're maybe back.

then there's one that has been there for over twenty years (wow! i thought i would be in my 30s before i said that sentence!) who seems to be gone too. i just realized a few weeks ago how long it's been since i've even heard her voice.

there once was an insurance company who's slogan was, "life comes at you fast." their advertising folks were so honest!


life is different. life is good. life is crazy. life is busy. life is fast. life is slow. life is changing everyday.
 
Reflecting on life and the lessons it gives/tries me with,
Britt